04 March 2009

my brain is not functioning well man.
all the vocabs build up from the past, all my eng is gone to idk where.
when i was asked for compo ideas, i could think nothing.
my brain has not been functioning well.
it couldnt produce anything.
im so ashamed of myself.
i get jealous at innocuous things.
i get unhappy about innocuous craps.
i get moody about innocuous matters.
i get depressed about innocuous bullshits.

the competition is strong but im alr beginning to lag behind.
my fighting cock spirit has vanished into thin air.
little things make me ponder for a whole day.
unreasonable things make me upset the whole day.
stupid things ruin my whole day.

i cant find the spirit back.
i cant find my brain back.
i cant fight on like in the past.

its never there when i always need it.
is this somekind of game?

its turning into an obsession.
im the stupidest freak on earth!

i need self-counselling.
i am a kuku bird.

i beg god, please stand by me.
"quitters never win and winners never quit."
i know.but idk what to do anymore, bullfrog.
it;llneverhappeninalifetime.
cantievergetanythingiwanted?

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