28 July 2011

Jessie J- nobodys perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing, yeah, I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
It's like I need to tell someone, anyone who'll listen
And that's where I seem to fuck up

Yeah, I forget about the consequences
For a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth starts going
The words start flowing, oh

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect, no

If I could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would've crossed that line
I should of kept it between us
But, no, I went and told the whole world how I feel and oh

So I sit and I realize
With these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
I promise that I'm gonna try

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect

I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, oh
I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, yeah

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect, no

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So tell me you can forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect, yeah, yeah, whoa

Don't tell me, don't tell
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
No, no, no, no
'Cause nobody's perfect, no

23 July 2011

"It feels as if I'm not appreciated. It feels as if it's only one sided. It feels as though it really lessened. It feels like your heart has to be shared with now. It feels like you are suffering more than enjoying. It feels like we are both unhappy. It feels like theres more pros than cons. It feels like we both need this."

06 July 2011


河马, 一只非常可爱的动物. 身体又肥, 皮肤又粗. 一张开嘴巴, 你就看得到它的威力.你和它有相似点吗? 不一定是样貌, 性格等... 从它英文名你也可能能找到一个非常适合你的名称...

03 July 2011

sitting on my bed in my room... i should be sitting by my table, squeezing all the facts and factuals in my mind but nope, random thoughts came in my mind... to think about it, none of this should have happened. i dont even remember how it started... all i know now is that we've broken into groups, fighting against each other... "whats the point?" is all i can think now.... its kinnda dumb....... well, prolly these are just the random thoughts i always have at night when the tiring day is over and im resting my body, thinking about anything and everything... perhaps next morning we'll wake up to see tweets etc that offends us and that angry side of us seem to take control... then world war 4 begins....

19 June 2011


Just spent 15mins in popo's room, sitting next to her, listening to the stories bout her past. How much she hated ahgong cause he used to scold her, how he lied to her bout his age when he wanted to marry her, how he told popo that he actually had a wife in china and even had a son, how my 2nd uncle mixed with bad friends n got hooked on drugs, how my 1st uncle (who was the kid ahgong had w his first wife) took care of my 2nd and 3rd uncle, how much my mum loved to cry when she was young, how she was given sweets from the japanese, how my great grandfather worked for the Japanese (?!) etc etc. Telling me these stories caused her eyes to tear a little...

Then I came out to the living room n lay on my sofa. And suddenly, thoughts that went 'what happens when popo leaves?' overwhelmed me. And before I knew it, tears were streaming down my cheeks. Popo was the one who took care of me since young. She was never educated so all she knew was to scold us with vulgarities. But nevertheless, she treated me n sis really well...

I'll remember how I got her her fave tapioca cake from the pasar malam just now and she ate it so happily. Then when I was having my dinner, she took one of my 4 pork rib and started complaining on how expensive that box of rice was. After awhile, she pointed to another and say that one no meat etc. I knew she was just being greedy and she wanted another. So I passed it to her and told her to eat it. And she began to smile so cutely... Ah... If only I had the whole scene video-ed down...

I love you so so much, popo <3

16 June 2011

31 May 2011

"whenever we give up something we really care about, we hope the universe will reward our selfless choice. however, its not always fate that gives us a gift. sometimes its someone closer to home. if you love someone, set them free."

- gossip girl


maybe what mum said was true. maybe it has been a wrong decision from the very beginning...