i type, then i backspace everything
ugh, not in the best mood i can be in.
sucks sucks sucks

tired.
is all i can say huh.

after this week, it ends the first term of 2010.
everything just woozed past so fast huh...
all i can say is... havoc & tiring...

this 2 weeks gonna be so busy too...
from tmr...

work, tuition
class leaders workshop, CO, sports day heats II
Arts Nighttt, buying yinyu de birthday present with herrr
CHIJOLGC family fun day in school (!!!!), tuition
.......................................................
MOE CO music camp audition (fingers crossed), jie-si-ling de sheng ri!!!
CO
CO
BANGKOKKKKK

yeah bangkok!
yay yay yay!
tickets has been booked,
SQ somemoreee,
wah, im gonna shop till i drop, shop till i never have beforee
mango sticky rice, thai mango, tom yam, chatuchak, paligon (spell?!) etc etc

ahh, the thought makes me SMILEEEE

nightttt!

schools boring,
lifes such a bore.
the red number on the top of my SS paper totally sianed me off.
so much for nothing. ass you.

ah, thinking on the positive side,
i gave my tuition a break for a lil (cause i didnt do the hw & im so lazy...)
anddd, im heading to VivoCity with lin yinyu laterrr.
perrhaps, some shopping can ease the sian feeling a little... i hope...
its been longggg since i walked thru malls...
wow...3 weeks?! omg, no wonder...
its time i open that wallet of mine to cheer myself up huh.

anyway, something happened ytd.
anddd, once again, i saw that face of someone which made me think of what happened last yr...
trust me, it wasnt a good memory to be kept but its one i'll never forget...
it was... scary, i would describe...

P.S/ hopefully i can manage to find some presents for afew girls later too.
settle it once and for all!!!

First Day of Chinese New Year...



wanyi!!! your junior!!! HAHAHAH but a much cuter and sweeter one!!!
(if you see the link of you & her... quite obvious uh)


















nope, no new clothes were worn,
nope, no new shoes were worn...
not make up, nothing.
i was just wearing some unknown t-shirt, collecting red packets with ringgit in it...
ah, it was plain boringgg...

anddd, after this 15 days of CNY, i opened every enclosed packet and counted all the notes.
so, total with the 3 huge angpaos from dad,mum and grandma, i got a total of SGD 520!
its super little, compared to the prev yrs but ohwell, i mentioned this cause of the number...
$520... if you know the meaning...


sigh, im tired..
tired of everything..
im so tired physically metally emotionally psychologically.
ohwell, at least im glad i just did something...
it totally takes away the load of my chest...
though things will not resume as per norm so soon...
but... i think.. time heals, whether there'll be a scar or not.

okay, off to... find something to do.
byebye!

a reunion dinner, yes, thats what i'll call it, was held at jaslyn & erman's house ytd.
all of us sat down, on 1 table, eating, talking, laughing.
it felt... great.
things just didnt go as right after that.
msgs were sent, i was speechless, and i really began to felt like the whole world was spinning around me..
so i cabbed home and fell asleep immediately.
-the end-

party A tells me about party B
party B tells me about party A
people do things i tell them not to
im stuck between everything
people wanna tell me things
but time and exams forbid everything
the cold war is still on
i want everything to be fine
but nothing seems to be going my way
its like im the cloth on the rope of a tug-of-war game
im stretched here and there
i will do what i deem is right
as long as i dont hurt any party
i will not not go with 1 party just cause the other doesnt like it
its bullshit
i will manage everything well.
i guess...
theres alot of misunderstandings i think
i have so much going on
i had eng and chinese commontest today
both kinda sucked
i did not had enough time for eng
i hope and wish mrs ng will understand what i wrote / cancelled
i hope my chinese will not achieve some shitty b4 and below
i did 4hrs non-stop Amaths
i have Emaths Commontest tmr
i have SS Commontest tmr
i havent studied for any of the tests tmr
i have Amaths on Wed
im not gonna do well for amaths
my whole room smells like burnt incense paper
my bag smells like burnt incense paper
my pillow is stained with smudged burnt incense paper
thats what you get when you sleep near the window
and apparently i just shifted my room
and my bed is super near the window
and yadah yadah
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i am not going to think so much
im gonna make honey and study emaths and ss

bye.

making popo cry and wail is the most inhumane thing i can do...
guilt ):