i can say, today is a really bad day.
well done, i was "scolded" and mentioned twice.
by two teachers.
kay i suck.
so i got my first minor offence since last yr.
sucks la.
my clean record RUINED.

so me wanyi shar and dm went to icekimo for some icecream.
blah blah.
then i went to jog at 7 alone in bishan park.
HAH!
so as the music made its way through my ear drums
and the lyrics linger on my mind.
my heartbeat raced faster as i go on,
running on the tracks with others behind.
as the sweat seeped its way out my skin
and roll down everywhere
i kept thinking of things
self reflection is part of the dare.

1) oh and a couple came to our school today to take their wedding pics??!?
cool la cannn.
hahahha, so cute la.

2) theres a upcoming school trip to china!
8 days!!!!
ayyye, i wanna go badly mannnnn ):

my brain is not functioning well man.
all the vocabs build up from the past, all my eng is gone to idk where.
when i was asked for compo ideas, i could think nothing.
my brain has not been functioning well.
it couldnt produce anything.
im so ashamed of myself.
i get jealous at innocuous things.
i get unhappy about innocuous craps.
i get moody about innocuous matters.
i get depressed about innocuous bullshits.

the competition is strong but im alr beginning to lag behind.
my fighting cock spirit has vanished into thin air.
little things make me ponder for a whole day.
unreasonable things make me upset the whole day.
stupid things ruin my whole day.

i cant find the spirit back.
i cant find my brain back.
i cant fight on like in the past.

its never there when i always need it.
is this somekind of game?

its turning into an obsession.
im the stupidest freak on earth!

i need self-counselling.
i am a kuku bird.

i beg god, please stand by me.
"quitters never win and winners never quit."
i know.but idk what to do anymore, bullfrog.
it;llneverhappeninalifetime.
cantievergetanythingiwanted?

im tired.
im depressed.
im bushed.
im shagged.
im sad.
im sick.
im unhappy.
im uncontented.
im falling.
im drowning.
im dying.
im wishing...

okay idk what im typing.
but i know im gonna be sleeping aft this.
nights.

(^^this is so much nicer cann?)
Before i start bragging, cheryl i've got something to say!! Haha you this idiot, dont think i dont know, that so much things are bothering you. I'm your bestfriend so you think i wont know? Pissed okay, pissed that you wouldnt tell us anything. Stop keeping things to yourself girl, it wont do you good. Just go to my contact and press my beloved name ok? Anytime dearest, 24/7 for you, only. Your handphone will be happy too. Luv you.

though its just these few words, i can say, it made my day (:
thanks shar, really touched, didnt think people like YOU would do things like that.
should i be surprised or shocked? hah, its the same thing also.
k whatever. but still, thanks, much appreciated. thanks, alot darling.
butimstillnotgonnatellyoudear:D

anyway,
im home the wholeee day.
fast facts of today :
1) i woke up at 9++

2) i finished a book of 241 pgs in 3++ hours.
k, thats very slow. whateverrrr.
it was niceeee...lying on the bed, reading a romance novel :D

3) i finished my maths hw.
surprisingly, i found the energy to do it and taadaa, i did all in less than an hour, singing and doing at the same time

4) im starting on my history project!
hahahhaahahahaha, im proud of myself cause lazybums shar and wanyi hasnt even thought of what they are gonna do.

5) i had a very nice dinner cause there was curry fish head and hotplate tofu.
im bloated now (:

6) my room is in a mess, my cupboard is in a mess, everythings in a mess.

7) i wanna go watch the something access show. very creeepy but interesting!
bye!

4)

okay. i was emoing, bloghopping.
and randomly i went to daisy's blog and i saw this :

" Conficuous says a person with itchy buttocks will wake up with smelly fingers. "

and i burst out laughing to myself like some idiot.
kay,bye

i woke up in my uniform at 9 plus.
" SHIT! i fell asleep without bathing again!"
DAMN!
so, i slept from ytd 5 plus till today 9plus.
and in between at 12 plus, i rmb i was having this series of really really painful cramps.

kay anyway.
shar and wanyi were _________ __________,
dm had race,
joyce cant go out,
kitju is missing in action,

so, i was a stupid pathetic freak crying with agony and boredom early in the morning.
it was a very emo feeling.
*shrieks*
so, i begged my sis to bring me out of the house.
and, yay, she did.

went orchard with yingru.
and there was this nokia roadshow thinggy.
andd guess what,
i saw THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS live!
and very close somemore!
super coool!

ate sushi tei.
shopped but didnt get anything,
super boring,

and im home.

such a loser saturday huh.
weekends are like supposed to be getting all the fun you missed during mon-fri but this was the "fun" i got.
im such a loser can.
tsk!

you know theres times....

1 ) when you really wanna say all you have deep inside
but no one to?
cause either they are involved and you cant tell them or you just dont trust them or anything?
yeah, its sucks,
im bloating with my thoughts and feelings and all
eh, aft reading this, dont bug me to tell you kay, cause simply, i wont.
if not i would.
(:

2 ) you wanna msg someone.
but you are afraid they'll find you irritating
so you dont dare to.
and who knows, they are thinking the same way.
so you all arent talking just cause of the COURAGE?
sigh.

3 ) you dont know why.
but someone just turns the shoulder on you.
and treats you really mean, when you DONT EVEN KNOW what the hells going on?
and you feel really angry but you cant do anything?

4 ) you feel so upset abt something but you cant say it out
cause you'll only 1) spoil the friendship, 2) make others eeek you ?
but you just keep having the urge to?

5 ) you wanna cry for no rhyme or reason?

you guys dont know anything huh?
this shows how "close" we are.

ayye, time to update my private blog with all my sorrows.
nofriendfindfriend.
*P.S why are there so many anonymous taggers on my blog these days?!?!
please la have the balls to leave your name even if your leaving wicked comments.

[edited 11.34pm]
did you guys see the rainbow??

it was magnificent i tell you!
so so beautiful!
so magical.
i saw it and hurry up msged people to find.
and surprisingly, they could!
sooo could.
even joyce in sengkang!
hahahha.
it was really beautiful with the diff shades of colour!
and it was like. north sunset, south rainbow.
so i turn to the north i see the sunset i see the south i saw the rainbow.
took pictures with my phone.
but i cant upload it.
booo.
then i hurry walked up and took my cam and went down again.
but, there was no longer any rainbow.
booooooooooooo.

anyway.
idk whats wrong, it must be some unlucky day today.

1) i was piggybagging wanyi, very normally walking cause shes light.
then suddenly jiafu came and put his feet at my feet there and i fell!
somemore at the very very very rough kind of coloured bricks.
super painful!
i was crying and alll.
it was like bleeding then there was like pus
super disgusting
urghh.
then i couldnt walk to the GO.
soon, someone pushed a wheelchair!
super paiseh i tell you!
and i was FORCED to sit on it.
urghhhh.
then they put iodine and all.
wahlao.
painful uh! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,
somemore we covered it up for jf!
they ask how i fell, shar will say i walk then fall.
PLEASE LA! as if as im really that dumb...
make me feel so humiliated lor.
urgh.
stupid ohjiafu.
thanks wanyi and shar and all who asked(:

2)
was playing with wanyi then she scratched me!
on my eyebrow there,.
now theres a scar and my face is ruined.
urghh, its bleeding somemore.
howanyi, you ruined my face
):
ugly enough alr now she made it even uglier.
booo

3)
i was laughing abt something really funny during tuition.
then i BONG on the table!
and my nose bone hurts like hell.
my tuition teacher and mates were laughing at my cause its really loud.
and super painful!
urgh!

now my knee is still very painful.
and my eyebrow has a scar.
my nose is somehow flattened.
im the ugliest person on earth.

anyway watched " hes just not that into you" with dm shar and wanyi.
not bad luh,
quite meaningful and really sweet.
AWWWWW,

and and, we saw felicia chin and 2 other actors in amk hub acting!
so cool lor!
saw her in real lifeee!

bye bye bye!

1)it was meant to be a spite..
2)not another one please.