yeah...
after months and more than a year of hard work, sweat and of course blood and tears,
we achieved a gold.

dont bother congratulating me.
cause i aint happy at all...

we really really did very very well!
zls was really really proud and very happy!
all the instructors of the sections were very pleased.
and said we did the best performance aft practices time and again.
zls even said that we had a 85% chance of attaining a gold with honours and said we were perfect with no mistakes.
we were on beat, we were in tune, we were focused and very very passionate.
we were very very hyper and happy aft the performance, hugging here and there, crying.

but as the results were announced, we didnt cheer at all..
other schools attaining gold or even silver cheered their lungs and hearts out.
but we just clapped...
and the scene aft that was ...

even all the SCO members that are not coaching us at all said we'll get GWH.
our hopes and goals were set so high.
and i think we all tasted the feeling of qi wang yue da, shi wang yue da.
i was really controlling my emotions so so hard.
taking deep breaths, telling myself not to cry
but it all just came out when zls came over and talk to the few of us.
" 在我心目中，你们是一个荣誉金的乐团."
and he was still very proud and happy.
that time, i couldnt take it anymore and teared.
and on the bus journey back, emotions just couldnt be controlled.
and i was crying so so badly..
tears just kept falling and falling.

some of you may think..
GOLD WHAT! cry for what?!
but, its the thing we aimed for, the thing we really really really wanted.
we really did very well.
i really dont know why...
maybe like what zls said, its not the judge's cup of tea...

no one expected temasek to get gold with honours..
every SCO instructors thought we were the ones who would get it...

during the briefing back in school,
it was worse.
i see jessie crying, i cant controll myself too...
it was really.... idk.

now seniors keep telling my batch,
to work extra extra hard and to get that gwh next next yr...

it really wasnt as easy as we thought, i guess...

idk what to say alr.
i just keep crying idk why...
i lost all my mood to study for mid years alr..
i think it was a really great blow..

di yi da ai : ai hua yue.
di er da ai: ai yue qi.
di san da ai : ai da jia.
di si da ai : ai zls.

if you dont understand...
1) zls = zheng lao shi, my orchestra conductor.
2) SCO = Singapore Chinese Orchestra.

if you wanna know other school's results...
http://www.chinese-orchestra.com/

i am excited, elated, eager, enthusiastic, charged, delighted, jumpy, keyed up, on fire, passionate and whatever else there is to describe excited!
HHAHAHAAHAHHA
after monthssss of hard work and endless practice,
our SYF is tmr!!!

and today, straight aft school, we had our last practice!
and it was.... GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
HAHAH, im so happy, idk why.
esp aft the cello solo, i was so excited and bouncy!
i cant wait for tmr!

i hope all our hard work wont be put to waste and we can achieve our goal tmr!
andd of course if we do, we get to see clarence bald!!
HAHAHAHHA! (he made a promise that if we get gold with hons, he'll shave bald!!)
GOOOD LUCK, MFCO!!!!

oh and i have to wear my costume and PUT ON MAKEUP before i reach school before 6.45!.
ohhh goshhh!
foundation, blusher and lip stick.
disgusting luh! and imagine me taking bus.
oh my!
so, i;ll have to figure a way later...
and whatsmore, 6.45 is the time i usually wake up luh!
and now i have to reach school before 6.45!
and im sure i wont be able to sleep later lor!
ayyyyye, im so hyped up!
HAHAHAHAHA

JIAYOU MFCO!!!
wish us luck kays!

ohhhh welll.
i just woke up from a 2 hr nap.
and i'll be starting my book-notes-studying-homework-bonding time.
in just a moment aft this.

so!
i slept at 3am ytd.
aft watching wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai and lovely samsoon with my sis.
while doing hw. (yeah i know thats not th right way :X)
was forced to wake up early at 4am for some bloody stupid quarrel.
and forced to wake up again @ 7plus.
aft breakfast, finally rushed out to sg at 9plus in the morning.
came home, threw my bags on the floor and plopped onto bed.

slept till 12.40 and thought i was late cause the consent form writes 1pm.
i rushed and rushed.
ate 1/4 bowl of rice. bathed and luckily daddy drove me to school.
heng ah!

change, SCH, blahblah i;ll skip that.
i bet you guys are bored of whats up here...
ayye.
aiya, just played and my bow almost dropped off cause i lost grip!
sucks!

kay, im waiting for my sis to return with my subway.
ive not had dinner yet cause SOMEONE last min say cannot go out.
so i threw a tantrum, went inside my room, slammed and locked my door and lay on my bed.
aft 5 mins of crying for idk what, i fell asleep.
thats why, i just woke up.
and im very very hungry.

lastly,
1) school starts at 9am tmr!!!
2) but ends at 3 and ive CO ):
3) exams nearing in 2 weeks or so.
4) ive got a pile of work not done / not studied enough
5) oh did i mention, im going CHEENA during the june hols!! (will elaborate more soon, i guess!)
6) im very hungry
7) my cough is not fully well but my medicine has finished.
8) im gonna run my 2.4 again tmr, not because i failed previously!
9) im still waiting for my house door to open so i can rush out to get my subway.
10) SYF IN 2 DAYS!! JIAYOU!

i dont wanna get involved in family squabbles anymore!
it always happens on me, my family!
my familys like cursed or something.
irritating!
it just always happen when one speaks without thinking.
and then the other will forgive but never forgets.
and kicks up another pile of shit.
and my sis and i will have to clean it.
thats why, ive once told someone but idk whether she rmbs,
the mouth is the most sinful thing.
im so not gonna put all those squabbles in my mind anymore!
concentrate cheryl! CC!

I AM IN MALAYSIA NOWW!

hahah, theres actually no need for the caps la.
so, pepper is just so active!
im tired aft playing with him.

anyway, i dont know why im blogging.
cause theres nothing for me to blog
unless you want my CO stories again.
HAH.
ayye, this blog is pure boring. nvm.

and heres 5 quotes for you...

1) Theres no such thing as a failure. theres only learning experiences
2) Stand up from where you fell. but this time, stronger than before.
3) Before you want things to change, YOU change first.
4) Dont live for someone nor live on someone!
5) Never make someone your EVERYTHING. cause when they are gone, you're NOTHING.

and,
dont get influenced by others.
they wanna do anything, why must you follow them?
set a point and a goal. and you jollywell strive to achieve it.
and not just only saying it.
cause everyone knows how to do that too.

i am me.
if youre unhappy, too bad.
and sorry,im not as understanding as you guys think.
cause i think its a little over for me. and theres a limit for everything!

kay, the rest will be on my private blog!

tmrs gonna be a shiok day!
will post abt it soon, i guess,
HAH
byee
overreaction...

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kitju : hello darling!

okay so.

CHOIR GOT A GOLD.
yeah, from bronze to gold.
not bad huh.
ayyyye.
but that also means more stress to CO.
and now, its really the GOLD WITH HONORS that we wanttt.
urgh, competitive huh.
hahha, but stilll....
kay, some things just cant be posted here, in case i get myself in trouble huh.
JIAYOU, MFCO!
tuesday is the day the battle begins!!!

okay so.
i was feeling feverish during combined practice todayyy.
sucks luh. the cough medicine was working its way in my body,
causing me to feel so unwell.
was asked to go back but i didnt wanna...
its like, 4 more days?!?!
i dont wanna lose out anymore...
chiongggg uh.

oh and,
how can i forget,
the laughters again in CO.
HAHAHHAH, yeahhh, Bryan Soon is super funny man.
he keeps burping loudly, in the middle of no where.
then he'll say sorry.
but my conductor still looked... disgusted.
HAHHA, its really really funny.

anyway,
i think i;ll be going to malaysia tmr.
HAHA, its time i go in uh.
i miss pepper! i bet itve grown alot luh,
ayyyye!

and sunday, will be another tryout in SCH
hahah, cause the previous time, we asked for video recording and paid for it.
but they didnt do it and they cant refund.
so, their own slot left avail is sun, 2pm.
soooo, we can go there again for a second tryout for freee.
and if you dont know.
we actually have to pay around 700bucks just for an hour of tryout in there..
and now we're getting an hour free.
cool huh. HAHAH.
okay, nvm

annddd,
best friends are best friends huhh.
we even fell sick tgt,
HAHHA, so now, every recess, i'll be popping the pills with shar.
hahahah.
ayyyye.
anddd, wanyiiii, DONT PON SCHOOL ANYMORE KAY!!
sad, come school and find ussss!

MAYFLOWER SECONDARY SCHOOL, CHINESE INSTRUMENTAL ORCHESTRA'S SYF WILL BE ON 21APRIL 2009, 11.20am. RESULTS WILL BE ANNOUNCED AT 12pm.

ALL THE BESTT GUYS, SHOW THEM WHAT WE ARE MADE OF!
since choir can move 2 steps up, from a bronze to a gold, we can certainly try for 1 step up, from a gold to a gold with honors uh!
jiayou!

OH MY GOD
i cant stop laughing as i keep staring at this photograph.
oh my, it simply makes my stomach hurt like hell.

so, i have been laughing almost the whole day till my stomach hurts badly.
especially Bryan Soon, in CO.
oh my gosh, i was laughing like mad la please!
sheeesh!
my stomach was really painful and my windpipe was really choky and all.
it was horrible man. but really really funny.
kay, i wont elaborate further. if youre there, i bet you'll be laughing with me luh!

talking about choky windpipes,
I. AM. SICK.
hahhaha, wonderful or what.
so i consulted a doc today.
and, i was given more medicine than what i expected.
so, i have to start popping the pills.
and of course, the horrible make-you-giddy cough drop, which i have to take aft this.
sucks man.
i was almost given an MC for tmr.
but mummy says there isnt a need to.
haha, but i also wanna go to school luhh,
SA is coming, sucks balls man.

so,
its school, lessons, CO and on afew days, tuition.
ayyyye.
lifes a bore man.

everyone is so upset.
about life, studies, relationships, families and all.
ayyye, be strong guys!
stand up and fight the battle with a strong and positive mind.
time heals!

oh and i found out i hardly reply your tags huh?
hahah, pure laziness luh.
so, i'll start to form this new habbit..

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so you watch The Hills too huh?!?! hahhaah, head over heels man!
tiffany : hahah, yeah! will do soon. thanks for tagging!
wanyi : kay, thats random. but yeah!

time for the medicine, some work, and lastly, my bed!
:D

among the sea of people out there, theres of course some mean one and some really nice people.
and thanks to lady luck whos on my side, ive met a really nice and honest person.
cause, SOME ONE FOUND MY PHONE AND RETURNED TO ME!
HAHAHAHHA, surprised or what, i was shocked to when mummy told me.
so, this boy who should be arnd my age, found my handphone.
and smartly, he found "mummy" in my contacts and called her.
but, its also weird, he only called aft 5 days or so?
kay nvm, i still got my phone.
and as a token of appreciation, mummy gave him 10bucks.

and on the car ride home, i was pondering.
did i deserve this? for this boy to return me my handphone?
when i lost my phone, i treated it as a punishment sent from god, as a retribution
for all the sins ive done.
but now, ive gotten the phone back.
and idk why, im not that excited...
perhaps, i dont think much of it. or simply, im weird.

HAH.

but, still, daddy wants to keep the phone till he thinks i deserve it back.
cause he says im "kurang ajar"
and, i accept this idea of it, idk why.
i wasnt rebellious or angry when he told me that...
i think i deserve it myself.
so maybe, im really that bad.

oh so anyway,
ytd, at my lowest point of time,
my chubby bubbly friend came to rescue me.
HHAHAH.
my skinny white friend wanted to help.
but a pity she couldnt...
but still, sincerely appreciated darling!

so, i called ms lim dao min.
and asked her to come find me.
and surprisingly, her parents drove her here!
and she came!
HAHHA, it was really cool. causee it was really a last minute decision and i thought it would be a negative answer.
surprisingly, she called me with her cheerful voice and said its a yes.
and she was in my house the next min.

but as i couldnt stand the face of someone in my house,
we went down to study.
and, it was filled with pure laughter and stomach aches i tell you.
it was pure entertainment that made me laugh till my stomach hurt.
and it was those little actions that she done to make me so happy
it was, nice as the cool night wind blew our hairs and the laughters were really loud and there was some extra noise... HAH, that only me and dm will know :D

oh and we wanted to give geena a surprise...
( she stays 4 blocks away from me, if you dont know...)
a pity she wasnt at home??
ayyyyye.

anyway still,
thanks ms lim dm.
greatly appreciated! you made my dull life turn colourful.
thanksss.
oh, speaking of colourful, her shirt ytd sure was very colourful!
pictures later or another day,
and youll see it. HAHA

and, im going for a facial now.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA, if only it can turn me prettier.
ayyye, im talking crap.

kay, bye.

and sharlene, please please cheerup!
i;ll be there with you with the high sugar contents and all.
and im willing to spend my last 10bucks for the rest of the yr on you!
icecream, chocolate, dresses, bangles, anything that will make you smile!
just, dont cry cause its over but smile cause it has happened kay!
you still have me dm wanyi and geena.
and we'll be there for you at your darkest and lowest point of times.
so, cheerup kay! i;lll try to sneak out later to find you!
i love you!!
ayyye, the thing i predicted really happened ):

oh did i mention,
its HALF DAY TMR?!?!?!?
i only go to school for 2 periods of PE and we can go homeee!
HAHAH, lame or what.
but sadly, i still have CO till 1.
but aftwards, itll be some movie marathon, i guess?
:D